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Sunday, September 26, 2010

I'm moving.

I never thought this would happen. I'm leaving. My dad found a job in Trenton, New Jersey and we need it. We'll be staying where my aunt lives until we can find a home. But as soon as we can...we're out.












Just kidding, actually. Terribly sorry to anyone who actually believed that. I'm actually moving to another blog website. This one cramps my style.

Here's the URL:
http://oceanofhisgrace.wordpress.com/

Bye bye blogger.

~j

Friday, September 17, 2010

I don't understand why everything that is happening needs to happen in the most excruciatingly painful way possible.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Ode to Summer

Well, summer is over in about 7 hours.  

Through...

...what seemed like endless days of stagnancy and stumbling backwards
heartache and tears that fall like rain
hollow laughs and smiles
determination in its purest form
the experience of a LIFETIME
horrifying situations
a God I will live for
the way I have been changed
heartbreak and dead ends
depression in a family
set backs and fears
knowing how it feels to be alone
and pretending that it's all right
the hardest struggle of standing up again
depending on God like oxygen
doubts and worries
nightly cries and screams in darkness
waking up in the middle of the night thinking until the sun rises
praising my Lord no matter what comes my way
empty pens and an entire notebook of thoughts and prayers of this summer
friends that are truly there, not just for show
music speaking to me like nothing else
discovering a passion
goodbyes and changes
quiet rooms and empty houses
holding on to family
each day being a challenge
knowing that one day I will be all right...

this has been one heck of a summer.

~j

VOTD:

For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies.
Psalm 57:10

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Sometimes, it's so necessary to let go of everything that has happened. Letting it all slip away for just a few minutes can be so relieving. I was doing the dishes last night, home alone, and Billy Jean came on the radio. I grabbed a soup ladle and I danced around my kitchen like crazy. Hahaha it was great.  I seriously forgot everything that has happened, everything I struggle with and the problems that keep coming up and got to sing Michael Jackson as loud as I could. 

~j

VOTD:

The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.
Lamentations 3:25-26

Thursday, September 2, 2010

In the past few weeks...

I have realized why there are so many songs written about love or falling in love.

I have also realized why there are so many songs written about losing love.

I have realized that it's for the better. I have realized that the disease got in the way.

I didn't realize how much it was killing you.

I have also realized that you should NEVER EVER EVER drive with flip-flops on. And you should never ever freeze in fear with your foot gunning the gas.

All i got for now.

~j